SUGAR

2019 | 60 minutes

DIRECTION & CHOREOGRAPHY ChristinaNoel Reaves

DANCERS Nico Gonzales, Tai Green, Natalie Deryn Johnson, Liana Kleinman, Holly Ledbetter, Jonathan Matthews

MUSICIANS Cameron Mizell, Andreas Brade

LIGHTING DESIGN Dalia Sevilla

VENUE LATEA Theater, The Clemente (NYC)

once upon a time, there were three fears: papa fear, mamma fear, and baby fear. 
all were too hot, too cold, too hard, too soft…and yet somehow, also just right. 

huh.

i'm not really sure how i fit but there is always a space for me. 
i can’t fix all of this but i pick up the pieces and lay them out in order. 
i follow the recipe, remember my lines. 
it’s not what i expected and vengeance is sweet but useless. 

made from 87% recycled glass, i am strong, wild, and free 
but i will not be familiar and i’m composing myself as fast as i possibly can 
then making fun of the alternate self i embody, 
then running to catch up with it and apologize. 
like i’ve been here before, i follow these lines, 
screaming sweet nothings, blown out of proportion... 

dealing with gentleness clumsily, 
fingers always too slippery, gestures always too grand. 
i never wanted to be called romantic!
this certainty's a little death, a little sweet, a little sour. 

i'm hugged and left for dead, but somehow i haven’t missed a beat, 
flying through concentric circles of reason and doubt, 
wondering aloud if i’m okay and who decides what’s okay. 
doesn’t that seem a bit drastic? 
because who is who? are you one or am i speaking to all of you? 
i’m expecting to be held while getting away with dropping…